Making decision to do something important is not easy. However, if it is something that you are passionate about. Just do it. Just take the first step. If you have an instinct about what you want to do and become, you should follow your instincts. Jump off and experience the free fall.
Not knowing how to do something, is not an excuse for not doing something. You will feel exhilarated once you jump. If you keep at it, there will be people and ideas that come to you. If you can imagine how great it would be to have what you wanted. You can jump off and take the first step in achieving your goals and dreams.
It can be little leaps and not a massive jump. Go in the direction of your dreams. Just get started. Taking action is the best thing you can do. Even if it is just asking a question or writing out your ideas. Getting around other people who have jumped, is another way to take you in right direction. You can achieve your goals. It will happen if you keep going. I am making strives in the right direction. I highly recommend you jump in. Your kids will thank you for it.